I heard a song by Hilary Scott called, “Thy Will“. I don’t think there has ever been a time when it could have resonated with me more than right now.
My family and I are obligated to vacate our home in 23 days. If everything goes smoothly with our impending purchase contract, our closing will be in 30 days. Which renders us virtually homeless for a week…IF everything progresses with ease. Let the record show that we have a horrible record of “luck” when it comes to housing contracts. Our first home took 6 months to close on, our last attempted purchase ended in the seller backing out last minute and having 48 hours to move, and this one… well, I’m not on the other side of it yet, but I’m praying that the third time is the charm.
“What then are we to say about these things? If God is for us, who is against us?”-Romans 8:31 HCSB
I was sharing the situation with my sister-in-law and she reassured me that it’s okay to have feelings. I hadn’t thought of that before. As simple as it sounds, I was holding back and dismissing feelings that are natural responses to the circumstances. The result was a sense of weakness and depression. It is okay to feel angry, or sad, or scared. It’s LIVING in those emotions rather than offering them up to God in prayer that is not okay.
That changed my tune a bit. I had been holding it together and hadn’t allowed myself to feel the emotions that were coming up and there was a numbness because of it.
Praise God I don’t have to be strong in my own strength; I don’t have to know all the reasons and answers and feeling emotional is normal, not something to be ashamed of or embarrassed by.
“I know both how to have a little, and I know how to have a lot. In any and all circumstances I have learned the secret of being content — whether well fed or hungry, whether in abundance or in need. I am able to do all things through Him who strengthens me.”-Philippians 4:12-13 HCSB
I have security and certainty in Christ Jesus that no matter what my circumstances may be, whether it be living in our car, crashing on someone’s couch, or somehow paying for a room at an extended stay hotel, we’ll be alright; because God is sovereign and he cares for his children.
“The Lord will always lead you, satisfy you in a parched land, and strengthen your bones. You will be like a watered garden and like a spring whose waters never run dry.”-Isaiah 58:11 HCSB
“Cast your burden on the Lord , and He will sustain you; He will never allow the righteous to be shaken.”-Psalms 55:22 HCSB
“Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God, so that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your care on Him, because He cares about you. Be serious! Be alert! Your adversary the Devil is prowling around like a roaring lion, looking for anyone he can devour. Resist him and be firm in the faith, knowing that the same sufferings are being experienced by your fellow believers throughout the world. Now the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ Jesus, will personally restore, establish, strengthen, and support you after you have suffered a little. The dominion belongs to Him forever. Amen.”-1 Peter 5:6-11 HCSB
If my fellow believers around the world are being put to death and imprisoned for their faith, yet not wavering in their belief and trust in God, what is my excuse? I have none.
In all things, Lord, Thy will be done.